A Meditative Self Experiment

As part of my Yoga Teacher Training, I was recently tasked with an assignment on Mindfulness.  The assignment was to write a short journal on the effects of two weeks of mindfulness meditation practice.  I do have a fairly regular meditation practice - most days, if not every day, as well as a regular yoga practice.

Why The Hell Am I Doing This?

I’ve been having a bit of a crisis of faith recently (and always) - wondering what the hell am I doing - why am I trying to change my life so drastically with this yoga and meditation teaching palava?

The Last Few Months (Or Why I Haven’t Posted For a While)

As the title suggests, it’s been a while, and so much has happened - here is a short summary.

The Radiance Sutras

I recently discovered The Radiance Sutras by Lorin Roache. It is a rendition of the classic Vijñāna Bhairava text that has been handed down from the Kashmir nondual tradition.

Techgnosis!

I recently joined a book group, discussing the book TechGnosis: Myth, Magic, and Mysticism in the Age of Information by Erik Davis, and though I’m not finished yet, I thought I might jot down a few notes why I love this book so much.

Happy Stomachiversary!

It’s one year ago today that I had my total gastrectomy.  It’s my stomachiversary, or nostomachiversary, depending on what you want to call it.  Oh how things have changed!

On Death - Pt 1

I will always remember the first time I came face to face with my own mortality.  Jo and I had trekked to the bland suburb of Box Hill to get the results of my pre-surgery C/T scan.  The surgeon could barely look me in the eye as he told me the scan had detected a growth in my lung, and my cancer was now inoperable.  I asked if there was any way we could check the results.

Where Are My Yoga Podcasts At?

I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned it before, but I’m a bit of an information junkie.  I have what I like to call “mini obsessions” about a particular topic, and when I’m invested, I like to learn as much about this topic as I can. My latest mini obsession, Yoga, has become more of a “maxi obsession” (which has sprung up a few more mini obsessions of it's own) since I’ve begun my Yoga Teacher Training, and I’ve scoured the...

Feeling into the Center Line

Often when I meditate, I try to “feel into my centerline.”  By this I mean I try to observe any sensations in the front of my body, from my genitals up into my throat.  Some people believe this is where we store a lot of our emotions, and I agree.  When I get to my stomach area (or rather where my stomach used to be), I feel tightness, hollowness, stuckness.  Emotions come up - feelings of guilt and anxiety.

"Spiritual Teaching"

I recently saw this skit by the hilarious comedy duo The Bondi Hipsters, with their acerbic take on spirituality and meditation (Warning, some of the language and content is NSFW).  I was particularly moved by the last shot on so called “spiritual teachers”:

Living Without a Stomach

My diet wasn’t the worst in the world, but it wasn’t the best either. My parents weren’t much for cooking, and dinner was usually meat and three veg - mashed potatoes and peas and beans with any semblance of nutritional value or flavour boiled away. In addition, I always remember a bottle of coca-cola in the fridge, and ice cream in the freezer.

Yoga Teacher Training Begins

Last weekend I started my first weekend of yoga teacher training. It’s divided into 10 weekend sessions over the course of a year, with assignments and personal yoga practice making up the rest. After 2 days of getting up at 6am and attending 8 hours of lectures each day I was exhausted, but exhilarated at the same time. It was an intensive on the cardiovascular system, working with children and teenagers, backbends, and the anatomy of the neck, chest and shoulders.

The Neuroscience of Meditation

I've just watched this presentation from the last Consciousness Hackers meetup in San Francisco. It gets a bit technical, but there are also a couple of really powerful meditations in there. I urge you to fire it up and close your other browser tabs for the hour it takes to watch it!

The Gawler Retreat

I have to admit, I might have had it in my head that my treatment was done, and it was over between me and the big C, but after arriving at The Gawler Foundation, and meeting people with their first or second recurrence of cancer, those thoughts were well and truly put to bed.

Reflections of Infinity

Infinity gives me the willies.  

Recovering from Surgery.

It's been around 6 months since I had my stomach removed.  Even though the staff at Peter Mac are truly amazing, I'll always remember it as the worst time of my life.  After the surgery, they found blood clots in one of my lungs, and prescribed clexane to thin my blood.  A day later my other lung collapsed.  The doctors put in some tubes to drain my lung, but it was ineffective, so I needed another surgery to clear out...